"This seems to be the first time i talk about what i truly think in my life ......... and seriouslly, i dislike most of it."
My life is usually the same thing, parents ordering me around, never shutting up, always fighting for money this, money that, it's annoying. I hate having to hear the same damn excuses from both my mother and my father, i think it's very pathetic.
All my life, it's the same thing, my parents complaining and constant fighting, i pull off all of this BS, sometimes i think it would be better if i just ran away from them.
My father is always barking orders like I'm some kind of dog, "do this, do that, fix this, fix that, bring me this, bring me that". He barely even cares about me, everytime i get sick, he does not call to see if I'm ok, I'm the one that calls him. He's always pushing his annoying and stupid limitations and he never helps me in anything, he just lays in his damn bed, using the computer to download stuff that i do not even know what it is anymore.
My mother also likes to bark orders, but at least she helps me in whatever I need and she's the one that always takes care of me when i get sick. That's not to say she does not do the same crap, complain and order me around ....... story of my life.
Now for my "friends", most of them are nothing more than Freeloaders, morons that try to use me to get what they want. The very few people that are actually my friend do not really care about how i am, i may worry for their health or their problems, but they do not give a damn about mine. I can be hospitalized for weeks and they will not care, while if one of them gets mildly sick, boom, everyone's worried.
There's only 2 humans in this big, round, World that actually care for me, that actually ask how i am and if they can help me in something. If I had a choise between the world or them, i would gladly choose them.
In a world where no one cares about me at all, why should i care for them? Only those 2 people are the ones i like and the ones I'd do anything to protect, even if it cost me my life.
To tell the truth, i do not really know why I'm writing this, maybe my mind just had enough of hiding what i think about this life. I just hope that when i die, my soul will fare better than it does here on Earth.
All my life, it's the same thing, my parents complaining and constant fighting, i pull off all of this BS, sometimes i think it would be better if i just ran away from them.
My father is always barking orders like I'm some kind of dog, "do this, do that, fix this, fix that, bring me this, bring me that". He barely even cares about me, everytime i get sick, he does not call to see if I'm ok, I'm the one that calls him. He's always pushing his annoying and stupid limitations and he never helps me in anything, he just lays in his damn bed, using the computer to download stuff that i do not even know what it is anymore.
My mother also likes to bark orders, but at least she helps me in whatever I need and she's the one that always takes care of me when i get sick. That's not to say she does not do the same crap, complain and order me around ....... story of my life.
Now for my "friends", most of them are nothing more than Freeloaders, morons that try to use me to get what they want. The very few people that are actually my friend do not really care about how i am, i may worry for their health or their problems, but they do not give a damn about mine. I can be hospitalized for weeks and they will not care, while if one of them gets mildly sick, boom, everyone's worried.
There's only 2 humans in this big, round, World that actually care for me, that actually ask how i am and if they can help me in something. If I had a choise between the world or them, i would gladly choose them.
In a world where no one cares about me at all, why should i care for them? Only those 2 people are the ones i like and the ones I'd do anything to protect, even if it cost me my life.
To tell the truth, i do not really know why I'm writing this, maybe my mind just had enough of hiding what i think about this life. I just hope that when i die, my soul will fare better than it does here on Earth.
I usually feel alone, something i don't really want to change. After all the betreyals, all the people talking and badmouthing me behind my back, i don't need anymore people to hurt me. That's why i stay back, i stay alone. Only people i want to be with are my 2 important friends.
I've always had this desire to change, to change this world from it's chaotic state to something better, not just for me but for the people i love, to end this stupid, pathetic cycle of death and hatred. It's something deep in my heart that tells me i should try that.
I've always had this desire to change, to change this world from it's chaotic state to something better, not just for me but for the people i love, to end this stupid, pathetic cycle of death and hatred. It's something deep in my heart that tells me i should try that.
This is the end of what i think and i do not know if I'll even write anymore, but who knows.
